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[Dec. 16th, 2009|01:57 am] |
he comes in numbers
he comes in cans
aluminum alcoholic pleasure vans
he comes in colors
he comes in stages
steel spiked tattooed cages |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 18th, 2009|03:23 am] |
I am hurt deep inside
swimming against the tide
will I make it through
in this trap you grew.
Your feet at the edge of time
balanced by half-painted zebras
held by Wrapped up female mimes,
stubborn sentimental libras.
Look, look deep
what you seek
was never there
I am a spare. |
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| Oh God Not Again. |
[Oct. 6th, 2009|07:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bitchy | ] |
School, men, and crazy people
First of all, I just wanna say; school is cool, I just hate that I'm a procrastinator and make myself suffer through nights of little sleep and poor diet. I mean I like all of my classes, I just hate people. Yes people, I really, really do. Like there is there one girl in my engineering class who like is so not chill (from the UP) and talks to me condescendingly I mean thats cool whatever floats your fucking boat, whatever. But it gets to you after while, but I've just learned to deal with it and give her this Don't-Fuck-With-Me New Yorker face, end of story she's just no-so-cool, I'm done complaining. On the subject of people, I don't hate men. Some of them are cool, actually most of them are. But why do I attract like really strange ones? Like they aren't even ugly, its like they are just weird! Or gay*! Seriously be a man for god's fucking sakes! Does American culture teach all men to be passive? This is not cool with me sometimes.
On the subject of crazy people, look I mean like there is something in this world called manners. I mean just stop to think about what you are about to say to someone and realize how that could possibly make them feel, or you in that manner. If it isn't good, thats not cool unless you can pull off sarcastic-ness (which is a rare gift)! Sometimes I freak over the fact that I've entered the MidWest a region full of insanely passive people, Jesus!
But then again I'm crazy myself, as verified by at least 10 people.
*i mean like not out of the closet yet (doesn't even realize it?lol) |
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| weird. |
[Jun. 23rd, 2009|07:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Feather - Nujabes | ] |
I just watched a spider try and attack me. It went under the desk on the other side popped up on my side two feet away from me and started making a web to me under the desk. Then it popped on top of my papers. It started crawling towards me and it jumped towards my arm. I was watching this at some distance from the desk. He(or She?)hung from the bottom of the desk on a thread because it didn't reach me. As it swung there on a thread I swiped at it with my pencil, and it fell onto the rug. I gently stepped on it, hard, and then dragged my foot across the rug to seal the deal. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 5th, 2009|10:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | queenz | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Head Over Heels | ] |
I wanted to be with you alone and talk about the weather
But traditions I can trace against the child in your face
Won't escape my attention
You keep your distance with a system of touch and gentle persuasion
I'm lost in admiration, could I need you this much
Oh, you're wasting my time, you're just, just, just wasting time
Something happens and I'm head over heels
I never find out till I'm head over heels
Something happens and I'm head over heels
Ah, don't take my heart, don't break my heart
Don't, don't, don't throw it away (Throw it away...Throw it away...)
I made a fire and watching it burn (yeah) Thought of your future
With one foot in the past now just how long will it last
No, no, no, have you no ambitions, oh (What's the matter with...)
My mother and my brothers used to breathing clean air
(Nothing ever changes when you're acting your age)
And dreaming I'm a doctor
(Nothing gets done when you feel like a baby)
It's hard to be man when there's a gun in your hand.
(Nothing ever changes when you're acting your age) Oh, I feel so…
Something happens and I'm head over heels
I never find out till I'm head over heels
Something happens and I'm head over heels
Ah, don't take my heart, don't break my heart
Don't, don't, don't throw it away |
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| note to self - movies i need to buy, |
[Jun. 1st, 2009|01:33 pm] |
gladiator
last samurai
matrix (i have vhs?)
godfather 1 & 2
donnie darko
reduced shakespeare company
amadeus
seven years in tibet
the importance of being ernest
Fight Club
zoolander
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
-just because people I know need to see these movies but I don't have them which defeats the purpose of yelling at them because they haven't seen them.
I need a harddrive too.... |
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| I unmade my facebook, |
[Mar. 7th, 2009|11:52 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  rushed | ] |
Yeah I don't have a facebook, I've decide not to have until my grades go back up. Hard times call for sacrifices, sorry facebook... |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 8th, 2009|12:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  disappointed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Kaze no tani no | ] |
Heavenly Father, Help us remember
that the jerk who cut us off in traffic
last night is a single mother who
worked nine hours that day and
is rushing home to cook dinner,
help with homework,
do the laundry and spend a
few precious moments
with her children.
Help us to remember that the
pierced, tattooed, disinterested
young man who can't make
change correctly is a worried
19-year-old college student,
balancing his apprehension
over final exams with his
fear of not getting his
student loans for next semester.
Remind us, Lord,
that the scary looking bum,
begging for money in the same
spot every day (who really ought
to get a job!) is a slave to addictions
that we can only imagine in our
worst nightmares.
Help us to remember that the
old couple walking annoyingly
slow through the store aisles
and blocking our shopping
progress are savoring this
moment, knowing that,
based on the biopsy report
she got back last week, this
will be the last year that they
go shopping together.
Heavenly Father,
remind us each day that,
of all the gifts you give us,
the greatest gift is love.
It is not enough to share
that love with those
we hold dear.
Open our hearts not to
just those who are
close to us,
but to all humanity.
Let us be slow to judge
and quick to forgive,
show patience,
empathy and
love. |
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| BHWhAHAHAa!! |
[Jan. 25th, 2009|02:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  dorky | ] |
BHWHAHHWHAHAAAAwawa!!
yeah,....
just felt liek it |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 14th, 2009|12:17 pm] |
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Umm my phone is dead. sorry if I miss your call the best way to contact me is through the internet. |
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| Wait why the fuck am I depressed? |
[Nov. 30th, 2008|05:47 pm] |
The strong people are the ones who pick themselves from pain, being depressed is the easy way out. *slaps self*
You can do this Natalie
Now finish your spanish paper.
Here is a song im listening too if you're curious.
Di si encontraste en mi pasado
Una razón para quererme...
o para olvidarme
Pides cariño, pides olvido
Si te conviene
No llames corazón
Lo que tú tienes...
De mi pasado
Preguntas todo
Que cómo fue;
Si antes de amar
Debe tenerse fe;
Dar por un querer
La vida misma sin morir
Eso es cariño
No lo que hay en ti...
Yo para querer
No necesito una razón
Me sobra mucho,
Pero mucho corazón...
-Mucho Corazon, Luis Miguel |
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| And then life comes crashing |
[Nov. 23rd, 2008|02:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Illium | ] |
My best friend's mom is gone. I don't know from what, but I think know. 11/19/08. I loved her. She lived next door and was like a second mother to me, she was there during the most horrible times of my life. I can't even type anymroe |
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| Out of the Seven Sins What Offends You the Most? |
[Oct. 26th, 2008|05:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  angry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Allegro - BSG OST | ] |
1.Pride (includes Racism, superficiality)
2.Greed (stealing, selfishness)
3.Laziness (In people,leaders etc.)
4.Lust (sex driven commercialism, sex-related crimes)
5.Over-consumption (of anything)
6.Wrath (Uncontrollable fits of anger, emotion)
7.Envy.
And what I mean with that question is which one do you catch yourself committing and absolutely hate it?
For me the hardest things to remove from my life are pride, gluttony and wrath. Not to say that I don't commit the others; laziness is a ever growing sin in my life and that's mainly from my homesickness. I want to get rid of them? But how? How can you get rid of something so familiar to you?
"There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so. " |
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| Apparently it's locus season, or is the world ending? |
[Oct. 1st, 2008|12:53 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | floor, suelo, piso | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Kesenai Tsumi -if anyone knows where thats from I will give you cookies | ] |
1.Alright first of all how did I spend $600 in the past three weeks? All I have is ramen a half eaten bag of baby carrots and odwalla bars, yum.
2.I'm sick of the competition in this school, I don't care about it anymore that I don't go to office hours anymore or read the book. Sure I know the answer to that question but I don't like raising my hand anymore. I love how many students think the smart ones are the ones who raise their hand. To over achievers or wanna-be overachievers: Do I really care about your spectacular study habits and test taking strategies? No I don't quite give a shit sorry. Thanks for sharing them with me though, even though I've been on the 4.0 road before and I didn't like it and I kinda feel sorry for you. I'm sorry I like to have a life. It's time for a new learning experience like public speaking or a language, but the wave equation is still cool. I'll take out time in my day for you wave equation.
3. There these weird six-legged bugs outside my apartment that fly around about as long my index finger. It makes me want to read the bible (you know just to make sure there's nothing to worry about). |
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| Dear UM Students/Faculty/Staff |
[Oct. 1st, 2008|12:39 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | dorky | ] |
Can everyone just chill out? Equations aren't defined by parameters they are derived through theory/exp and all that wonderful jazz someone did for us already and who most likely dead. That hw problem is a lot easier than you think, well unless it's a derivation then; get a beer!
Also if everyone chilled out this would be a much better school.
Thank you for somehow not making want to kill myself,
Me |
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| I want to write an entry but I don't know what to write about |
[Sep. 14th, 2008|09:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Yagsougetsuna - Hari Kunihiko | ] |
As my fingers make their way across this meadow
The speeches of the ravens interrupt me.
And I'm stationary in this field of gladiolus.
Was it raining this whole time?
Water from their petals drips onto my hands,
Splashes of water I can't feel anymore... |
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